I am Nita Larasati. I’m a little girl who is
growing up into adulthood. All of the inconsistency of myself gradually erased
and replaced with a logical and critical thinking. Here I tried to know myself
more deeply.
Characteristically, I was a girl who loved the
blue colour. Blue, symbolizes calmness and tenderness. It is like the nature of
me that always tried to stay calm under all the circumstances in order to think
clearly. In life, the blue colour was identified with the blue sky, blue light
and no rain. Although sometimes grayish, but in the top of gray clouds are still
blue. The positive side of a person who likes the blue colour is having good
sense of confidence. But unfortunately, she has an over suspicious nature and tends
to be melancholy.
One thing I liked best about myself is when I
have particular desires, then I will work hard to achieve it. As much as
possible through my own, without burdening others. And it will be the pride
that I will always remember. For instance, three years ago when I started feel
the importance of the role of computers in supporting learning activities in
school, I was willing spent my savings. Whereas, the savings comes from the
persistence of me in set my pocket money aside each day for several years.
Since I was a child, I was accustomed to fulfill my others desire by myself. It
has been attached to myself because I have realized that it was my personal
wishes beyond the primary needs such as education.
From the persistence of my determination, I
became accustomed to independence. In any interaction I am able to implement
it. Through self-reliance, I am able to work well in groups. I can be a guide
in the group, took over division of duties and roles, also representing the
other group members in delivering information outside the group.
Personally, I liked to keeping busy. And so, I
like to be a member of any organization, which is I need to. In my opinion,
through the activity or organization, we can find a lot of new things that does
not necessarily we get only in formal education or family environments. Many rare and
valuable opportunities exactly came from the organization. For example, I could
feel the euphoria of governor bike parade or speaks on ceremony stage, because
of my position in organization. All of the occasion made me
learn actively. That is, direct experience, not just theory.
Blue; serenity and gentleness. Persistence of
determination. Independence. The flurry of organizing. All this has provided
many benefits inside me. Either directly or indirectly. I started dare to speak
in front of crowds is one example of the impact.
From the many of my nature, I do not like
myself who are too closed. I tend to be more difficult to be familiar with new
people I met in the free environment. However, it was not when we are engaged
in a particular group. I often do not feel comfortable with new people who I
know. I'm too picky. All because I find it hard to fit with new people,
especially those with different lifestyles and thoughts. All because I always
judge them from the first impressions. I felt this feeling since I was aware of
the balance inherent in the interaction, which requires reciprocity.
Second, I would rather work alone than work in
groups. Although I can work well in groups, it does not mean I like it. I was
more comfortable working alone, because everything does not need to rely on
others. I can set it up whenever I want. Then, I can also work according to
plan the flow of my own creativity without having to involve the complex ideas
of others. This attitude made me become more critical in choosing the
members of the group, where I feel comfort at work. Work itself is not bad, but
there are times that we do have to interact with others in the group. Moreover,
the new things that require information as possible.
Then, in the work, I prefer to complete the
job quickly and precisely, and tried to do perfectly. Whereas, I have realized
that in this world nothing is perfect. This selfishness brings me to
nothingness. Because, I often act surreptitiously in doing my jobs. It is in
order to no one knows when I'm done. I do not expect other people see my task.
And others do not need to know that my task has been completed. Actually, my
initial goal is to ensure that others do their task themselves. However, this
attitude makes me isolated. Some people think I'm stingy. Perhaps, I should be
able to put the time to share and when to apply these principles.
Too closed, self-employed, and selfish. The
three thing I dislike about myself have given some negative impact on me. If
allowed to continue, maybe I will not be able to develop better. Therefore, I
want to change those three attitudes to be open, working in groups in a
professional manner, and be rational. Not as easy as turning the palm of the
hand, all it requires a process. And the process would take time. I gradually began
to improve towards the better. For the sake of self-advancement.
In conclusion, I am is what I think. The power
of mind is so enormous. So, never think of things beyond the limits of human
ability. Make sure all the good stuff, so we really become a good human being
too.
Agustus 2012
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